Me, Doing Something

So here it is folks... I don't think of blogging the same way i used to. Back in the day, i had an account on killingmachines.org. That was during high school. I had stuff going on then, right... i talked to people, i communicated face to face on a daily basis. I was a bit more normal. I was also comfortable with myself as a person because although i was a bit nerdy, i was also known for that. i was known for being a nerd, who knew he was a nerd. knowing i'm a nerd is a good thing. i don't act out, as if i were some cool sly hip mofo. ya know ? but when people needed help, had questions, etc... i was there. i used my kmorg account to keep in touch. anyway, i ramble.

now that i'm not in school, and i don't have the time/money/desire/need to "hang with my homeys" on a regular basis, a blog of any kind is simply... well... not useless, but entirely personal.

Moving on...

For quite a long time, i have not learned anything.

I grew up programming computers, from about age 8-10. I didn't really *learn* that, you know ? Currently i am teaching myself the ins and outs of PIC microcontrollers and electronics. I think it's what i want to do for a living. Not that i can afford the needed education, mind you.

During high school, to help escape the idea that computers were the only thing i dealt with, i taught myself to knit. Ha. That helps... a gay nerd. Mind you i'm not gay, but obviously that's what they will think. But shit, i enjoy making things. Fuck football. I want to do things i want to do. So anyway, it was easy. I moved on to crochet. I don't know why, but i like it better. I do maybe 2 projects a year or so. just enough to keep myself into it. I like it, because it is a distinct contrast to my programming hobby.

I picked that up in a week or so. You see, i have never... LEARNED something. I have never struggled to comprehend something, and stuck with it. Mind you, i am trying to learn as much as i can about automotive shit, like mechanics and whatnot, but it's kind of hard with no garage or tools. That's probably what i'll go to school for. Automotive shit. and then apply my electrical skills. Anyway, on to the point.

UNICYCLE. FUCK IT IS DIFFICULT. It is also a meaningless hobby that will never make me money, nor will it ever produce anything tangible. It will help me lose weight, and it will change my life. It will be the first physical activity i enjoy........................ besides sex that is. it is unique. it is different. like so many things i do.

Why the hell do i do that, anyway ? I mean shit, look at anything i'm into, it's almost always low on the popularity list. And yet i'm DROOLING over this shit. Is it BECAUSE it's not mainstream ? who knows. Well music i suppose doesn't necessarily go that way for me. On the other hand there are some popular bands that i really frickin hate, but i guess thats a bit more normal than bowing to oh, say, Hanson, or some shit. Anyway i'm drunk now so i'm going to be done.

Point is, i'm going to be unicycling. Learning to anyway. They say if i get to it about 4 hours a week or so, i should be decent in a month or so. I'll be noting progress here.